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Have I told you lately that I love you?

It's been a really torturing semester.
All I ever do each day, is study, and study, and study.
This is my first time being such a geek.
And, there's one thing for sure,
I miss my old life. I miss my social life. I miss those carefree days.

I'm starting to feel weak again.
If anyone asks what's my weakness, I'd say it's 'love'.
It's always so easy to fall in love with someone, and yet so hard to let it go.
Holding back my own feelings for someone is equally painful, and it can be so tiring.
It sucks.
I want to fall in love.
I want to love and be loved.
I want to make sweet and memorable memories with someone I love.
But standing in between a 'best friend' and 'boyfriend' status and not being able to differentiate whether this is just me or the both of us, it's really torturing the hell out of me.
Yet at one point, I don't want to clarify and sort it out with him cos it'll be the end of our friendship if I ever make one wrong step.

I can't act like nothing's ever happened.
I just can't pretend.

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  1. Hello, just stumbled here randomly. I think you are a sweet girl and will find a love that you've dreamt of.
    Love is meant to be expressed, no one can ever say no to love :)
    Good luck with your love life.

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    1. Hey, I appreciate your thoughts <3 Thanks for having faith in me :)

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