Faery Dust

Happy 22nd Birthday to myself! It just feels like another ordinary day. Nothing special except that there are more people noticing my presence and calling upon me. I appreciate all the blessings though! I've got too many wishes and those candles can never be enough for me to make. But all in all, I pray and wish for the people around me to be happy, be blessed with what they have, to have wisdom and strength to overcome life's obstacles, be successful in every aspects of career, love and life, and finally, to be healthy always! As usual, Virgos place others' in priority of their own's. Last wish is for my own rightfulness, my own freedom, my own happiness, and for all that I know, I am not strong enough to stand firm, so I really need this spiritual support from God even though I am not very religious as well. With that, I'd like to wish myself a very happy birthday, for surviving 22 years of living. I wish myself to be more independent, to love my...

First try always didn't work out well But we would never miss on the second try! Woohoo! One of the highest and successful jump shot ever! Sigh, those wonderful carefree days..

I've always wondered if there is anyone else in this world feeling the same way as I do. The desperation, the cries, the feeling of having to get back up on your feet with whatever you have, fighting against your own will, picking up your own guts to do what you are most afraid of. Does anyone ever had to go thru so much on the route to happiness? I promised myself during the last heartbreak, that I would never do this to myself again. The torture, it's just too much for me to endure. With just as many loved ones around me to reach out to, I still couldn't help but choose to survive it all on my own. Oh, what else do I have to lose when all I have had been lost. Survival, is easy now. Just sufficient food intake to give me energy, water to keep me hydrated, some rest to spare me moments of agony. That alone is enough for me to survive. But that doesn't mean I am living. I had no idea where did the past few months went to.. I simply survived it. All I kno...

I've got a feeling that I'm gonna lose myself.