Faery Dust

I'm 18 now.31st August. I always thought that the grass will never be green on my side again. But on this very day, all of you made the grass greener than it has ever been. Thank you so much for the sweet surprise <3 Melissa is the one taking this picture :( <3 MTV MOT,*Infinity Hearts* Melissa.Ema.Astina Love Not forgetting about my family , Delicious Cake! Thank you so much. It meant really a lot to me.  Those sweet surprise, wonderful presents, awesome dinner, creamy cakes, and most importantly, those who were there to celebrate my 18th birthday; Thank you.

We'll all be :) It's a few hours' away before i officially turn 18. I could remember vividly how i feel last year, this day. I was feeling excited and elated, like even though there were no plan for celebration, at the very least, I'd be able to enjoy my birthday together with my classmates, and beloved teachers. Plus, my birthday always fall on Teachers Day, which means there'd be no class + an early dismissal! Isn't that what students always look forward to? Yeah, i'm one of those who looked forward to such days. However, for some reason, i feel different this year, now. I don't feel excited anymore, maybe a little but more of feeling scared. Like i'm not ready to move on, i still wanna stay as 17. I'm not sure how to explain the way i feel now; insecure, anxious, uncertainty.. C'mon Vera, a brand new day tomorrow, the start of the journey, and a change for the future. Be excited, and happy please!! :'(

Happy 21st Birthday, my dearest Joe Jonas ♥      Life's a constant change. Nothing stays the same. So why am I not changing too?

I have to be strong. Thank you so much,friends ♥ All of you taught me to be strong, And from now on, you guys will the reason for my smile, my happiness. Love you guys, so much.

I was so hyper with my MTV MOT in Facebook when suddenly a click stops everything. Yes, i don't know why, my heart doesn't want to listen to what i say anymore. My heart is starting to control me, i can't help it but to click on his profile account. I kept saying to myself, ' Vera, stop looking at the past, it's over, nothing can be done. So stop looking at his profile and get hurt in the end ' But i just couldn't help it. Seeing him smiling so happily with her, used to make me happy, and relieved. But not anymore now, it's like making the wound in my heart grow bigger instead. It's been about 3 years, why can't i forget bout you? I was the one who let you go. I was the one who was so heartless and so persistent to make you go. I was the one who made a mess, who broke your heart so badly. I was the one who thought there were no hope in our love. Maybe i was wrong. But then again, maybe i was right. I don't know, I really don...

it's tough, y'knw. it's like going against my heart, it's painful, it hurts. Sorry peeps, i know i haven't been updating my blog. Basically, i was too busy with college and i couldn't find time to blog. Time flies, i can't believe it. One moment i was in Singapore with my beloved friends, and the next moment, i was already back here, in Jakarta. Heh, i've been in Jakarta International College (JIC) for about 6 months. I've met new people, gotten new experiences, learnt new stuff, done my first semester well, and lastly, adapted well to the new part of the chapter in my life. I don't know what's gonna happen in the future, i honestly do not want to know but i hope everything would go smoothly and well for me. I still miss my secondary school life, and friends in Singapore. I know i have to look forward, and stop looking back. It's difficult but I'll try. In some way, I recognize that I will never be fully over you, a...