Faery Dust

C H R I S T M A S   E V E my lovely friends. Gifts exchanged :D Merry Christmas <3 May this friendship last. Family <3 Random pose  ;D Merry Christmas, <3 C H R I S T M A S D A Y   The only decent picture i have!! Spent my Christmas Day with Cindy Clarissa, Harvest, Phyone & Chia Hon. Played Monopoly Deal, New Zealand's drinking game, & supper at Spize <3 It was hell fun, I had the best Christmas day ever, in my whole entire life so far !!

Cindy went off to China this morning. Damn :'( When am I gonna see her again? Next year? Well, maybe. But if I'm not coming back to Singapore next year, then I'll probably be seeing her after I graduate from Monash University. That's like, another 2½ years to go. :( I've been having too much fun for the past days.. I wish I could repeat those days but it's impossible. It's 29th dec today, and I'm leaving on the 2nd of Jan.. Damn, how am I gonna say goodbye to my friends again? I have to come back on February.. I need to meet my friends for the 'last' time before I go Aussie. I want to spend more time here. I know that somehow, my parents wouldn't want me to come back here... But I'll keep hoping and praying, wishing and dreaming, that they'll allow me to come back to Singapore on Feb.

I fucking love the freedom here. I've been staying out till late, and this is the life i've been talking about. My dream life. I've had so much fun for the past days, and now, i'm starting to count the days to my departure date. I dont feel like leaving Singapore. It's not about the country, but the people in the country. I really wish i could stay behind and have more memories with my awesome friends. :( And oh, i got so addicted to this drinking game! Thanks to someone (LOL). It's a short game but it can make everyone go high and get drunk. OH MAN, now i really have this urge to drink again. By the way, i've had the best of the best Christmas day ever!!!! I've got this good feeling that my 2010 would end off well :)

I'm taking back my words. I think i'm still not ready to meet you. I wrote a letter for you though, which i think i'm gonna summarize and put here. You might not read it, but it's ok cos it makes me feel better if i blog it out. I'm sorry cos it still hurts whenever i see you. It brings back all the good and bad memories that we have and it just makes me feel so bad and regretful about everything that happened. 2010 is about to end, and i really hope 2011 would work out well for you. I hope to see a better you. Stop making your parents worry so much about you :)

Hell yeah, i apologize for not updating this blog. Well, my great grandma died last week, at the age of 91. It was such a sad weekend. Everyone showed up with deep dark circles, eyebags and teary eyes. I felt absolutely sad even though i wasn't really close to her. I could imagine how the people who were closer to her feel about her loss. During the closing of the coffin, everyone cried when we were down on our knees, praying and making sure we keep our heads down and eyes closed. I may not be close to her when she was alive, but i felt the piercings, the stings, the heartaches. I told myself to be strong, despite that, tears still flow down my cheeks. It was such a sad weekend. People were born, they live, they find happiness, they create new generation, they grow old, and eventually, they die. What's really important in life, is the way you lead your life, from when you were born until the day you stopped breathing. My great grandma lived, she found happiness, ...