I didn't expect this year to be tougher than the last. Then again, who said it was gonna be any easier. There are times when I really feel so hopeless in everything I do. The decisions I make seems to be wrong all the time. Even my whole life seems so wrong! Maybe the core problem is relationship. Maybe it is family. Maybe it is money. Maybe it is career. Guess I can say that all of them are my problem. I can't choose my own happiness. Maybe because others think I'm still too naive. Well yeah maybe I still am.. I can't go along with the happiness I wanted. I can't fight for the man I love. Neither does he want to fight for me. I can't get my freedom. Maybe because I'm the youngest in my family. I'm being doted the most, being protected from the bad. I can't do shit with the money I have. Though I don't shop at all, money seems to be depleting. I can't even excel in my work, I'm lost in direction, I'm just walking becau...