Nearing the age of 21.
People normally feel excited bout it cos they are at their 'legal age'; being able to do anything and everything cos they're free to do so.
It's not the case for me.
People are asking about my love life.
My future plans.
I have none.
I wasn't worried cos I'm still 20.
Like any other people in their early 20s, they just live their lives doing what they want to do, going wherever they wanna go, spending time sharing their laughter and sadness with anyone they wanna share with.
Basically they don't even give a thought bout their future.
Unlike them...
The people around me, asked and told me things that urged me to feel worried bout my own life.
'Do you have a boyfriend?'
'When are you gonna find one?'
'When are you getting married?'
'Oh, your siblings are married, you're next.'
Having those questions thrown at me, I can't simply do things because I want to, or I enjoy doing so.
I have to know who to stay close with, what to do in front of certain people, how to look good etc etc.
It frustrates me sometimes.
Most of the times, I just feel like a good-for-nothing girl.
Uncertain bout my future and whether I'm gonna find the right one to spend the rest of my lifetime with.
People normally feel excited bout it cos they are at their 'legal age'; being able to do anything and everything cos they're free to do so.
It's not the case for me.
People are asking about my love life.
My future plans.
I have none.
I wasn't worried cos I'm still 20.
Like any other people in their early 20s, they just live their lives doing what they want to do, going wherever they wanna go, spending time sharing their laughter and sadness with anyone they wanna share with.
Basically they don't even give a thought bout their future.
Unlike them...
The people around me, asked and told me things that urged me to feel worried bout my own life.
'Do you have a boyfriend?'
'When are you gonna find one?'
'When are you getting married?'
'Oh, your siblings are married, you're next.'
Having those questions thrown at me, I can't simply do things because I want to, or I enjoy doing so.
I have to know who to stay close with, what to do in front of certain people, how to look good etc etc.
It frustrates me sometimes.
Most of the times, I just feel like a good-for-nothing girl.
Uncertain bout my future and whether I'm gonna find the right one to spend the rest of my lifetime with.
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