Skip to main content

I will always, always, love you.

It's been ages....

I have lived for approximately 19 years and 7 months and 2 weeks now.
I have a maid who has worked for my family for approx. 25 years and if she wasn't diagnosed with what they call brain cancer, I am pretty sure that she would still be working for my family.
And I too, wouldn't have to write this post.

I've came across with many different maids in my life but they have never touched my life in ways that they could.
This one's.....very different from the rest..
She's not boastful, very kind, thoughtful, nice, loyal and also a talkative and cheerful person.
She has seen me growing up from a toodler to a teenager and now, almost a young adult.
I, too, have seen her growing older, from a woman who has black, long and thick hair to a woman whose hair is falling and you could actually spot more white hairs and black ones.

She has been the one waking up earlier than any of us, to wake us up for school and ensure that we weren't late for school.
She has been the one making breakfast for all of us.
She has been the one buying and making food for our meals.
She has been the one making sure that the house is always clean.
After all those years of doing these daily routine, she finally had to stop doing those because all of us have grown up and are eventually living separate lives.

All of us treated her as a member of our family and as a family, we protect each other and make sure that nothing could come between us.
We care, we share, we laugh, we do all things together.
At times when my mood is foul, i would throw tantrum at her but i guess she just sort of, ignored it and left me alone.
She could tolerate all my nonsense, my flaws and I wish I could take it all back and enjoy those moments we had together.

It's very tough to say goodbye to someone whom you already know for so long, and whom you treat as your family.
It's even tougher to say goodbye when you know that you will never and can never meet that particular person forever.
And it's not those 'forever' that you always add into a sentence just to make it sound nicer.
It means FOREVER.

It just hurts.
It hurts so badly.

Comments

Popular posts from this blog

"i don’t think it’s time that heals hearts, but distance from the person you were when you loved." It takes so much courage to fall in love. So much risk to trust someone you barely knew. One moment feeling so sure that he's the one who will always be there for you till the end of time. Then the next, feeling all crushed up because you realized that life is unfair and somehow, disappointments and anxiety keeps hitting in your face. I never thought distance could be a problem. The feeling of insecurity.
It's not that I believe everything happens for a reason. It’s just that… I just think that some things are meant to be broken. Imperfect. Chaotic. It’s the universe’s way of providing contrast, you know? There have to be a few holes in the road. It’s how life is. — Sarah Dessen Reminiscing old times as a Studio Ghibli Freak