Besides Formspring, what websites do you check the most often?

I know you don't like me going Singapore.
But please think of what you've promised me before i agreed to come back here for college.
You said i could go back Singapore whenever i have holidays.
But how come it seems like i've been here for 8 months, and been to Singapore only once?
And it's not like i get to spend my whole holidays there.
I got to spend only a few days there.
So can't you please, just allow me to go Singapore.
Stop having plans to go anywhere further.
I am not interested.

And, if you think i'm gonna do something bad if i go Singapore,
then you're so wrong.
All i wanted was at least a week of freedom.
I just wanted to meet my friends, catch up with each other, and spend time together.
I have no other intention :(

You know, i was fucking happy when i heard i'm going to Singapore on 30th Sept.
I swear. I even countdown to that date.
I couldn't wait to meet my friends there.
I even made plans.
I was so excited, you could say i'm living on cloud 9.
But, my hopes were crushed, it's shattered.
I don't even know what to look forward to anymore.
I'm not doing anymore countdowns.
I'd rather stay here, than going to some other places i don't intend to go.

I know even if there is still time for me to go Singapore after that trip to Hongkong,
you'd probably still get me a ticket back to Jakarta instead.
And i already know what would your excuses be.
I know you too well.
But you have yet to know me well.

I don't know what to say anymore.
I am feeling so disappointed.
Maybe it's my fault in a way, for hoping too much.